Thursday, November 15, 2007

Yes and No

"I love you so much that it hurts my head. I don't mind you under my skin. I let the bad parts in the bad parts in..." - Degausser, Brand New

I know not everyone hides themselves. But most people hide some parts of themselves. It is a natural thing, for the same reason you are still hiding parts of yourself from me. No I do not hide myself from you. I do not hide anything about myself from the people I care about, but nor do I make it obvious who I am. You have a deeper understanding than most because you know me sexually as well. You have seen how I can be and we have talked about my violent side. I think that is my most misunderstood aspect. But I won't correct people when they say things about me. They can think what they want. I will disagree when someone calls me smart, or a writer, but that is because I don't think I am either of those, yet.
I don't want to protect anyone from the truth. I want to save everyone.
I don't mind that you hide things, or that others hide things. I won't pry into things. I will let the answers and the facts present themselves. Another one of the things that I am quite cocky about is my perceptiveness. I know it is not 100 percent, but I do try. I will pick up on small details, behavioral things, and many of the things a person does and doesn't like. I pick it up in passing, in an overheard conversation, through other people doing the asking for me, through other people making the mistakes so I don't have to. I hate making mistakes when it comes to women (that's why any woman could ask me to do something and I will do it). But I do know how to learn from my mistakes when I do make them, because no one is perfect, least of all me.

I'm sorry you got me on a rant. :]

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