Sunday, April 13, 2008

not a good idea

that movie had some deep and profound effect.
hence why i seldom watch it.
i got so wrapped up in amazing hot chick nude that i forgot about all the other stuff...
i thought love was supposed to be happy.
oh well.
yet another one of my... lol... almost did it again... im so used to spilling everything here... and now i can't.
its odd, the death of one era and from the ashes the birth of a new one. its gonna be oh so much fun for you guys. still trying to get into my head. good luck.
yes shannon i may still wear my personality on my sleeve, but you'll have to figure out which one it is.
yes jess you do/did know a lot, but you are merely testing the walls of this new cage i have trapped you under, soon the realization of how little you know will come to bear. doubt will fill your mind and with it i will have succeeded.
who is emmet? haha no one knows because he is his own best kept secret. knowing the past does not help you any longer. the past has become the present. and no one is finding out the present. and if you can't put two and two together, then you don't have four. and if you don't have four then you don't even have half of what is required to begin to broach the depth of maze i have locked myself in...

3 comments:

jajohansen said...

i believe its more of a won't than a can't...

Shannon said...

I agree.

Shannon said...

Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd known the difference

Emptiness, a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin' gun
A sign of my indifference

Always keepin' safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in

Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in

Kept my cool under lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condidtion

Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession

I kept a chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission

The burning ghost without a name
Was calling all the same
But I wouldn't listen

The longer I'd stall
The further I'd crawl
The further I'd crawl
The harder I'd fall
I was crawlin' into the fire

The more that I saw
The further I'd fall
The further I'd fall
The lower I'd crawl
I kept fallin' into the fire
Into the fire
Into the fire

Suddenly it occurred to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existnce

Everything left on the other side
Could never be much worse that this
But could I go the distance

I faced the door and all my shame
Tearin' off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken

But no matter how I tried
The other side was licked so tight
That door it wouldn't open

Gave it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get through the door

And the more that I knocked
The hotter I got
The hotter I got
The harder I'd knock
I just gotta break through the door

Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Break through the door






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