Innovative

I guess there isn't much to say. Things seem to come across the most when things are in such predicaments. I am in a relationship and suddenly feelings that were never expressed so strongly come out. Or maybe it was my choice of words the other day.
S you need someone who can give to you everything you need. D is a great guy. He is smart and funny and attractive and smokes. He is into similar things as you, he has been around for so long. However that might be the downfall, you are relying on that too much. He is rather self-absorbed at times, that is why you find it difficult to get things into his head. It's not as much of a problem except that you need lots of attention.
I know your feelings for me. However, I think it could be just as strong for a person who is like me in that they will give you whatever you want or need at anytime. There are a few of us out there, fighting up hill against the stereotypes of society. Just the wild whims of social pressure tend to blow us off course and make us more difficult to find. But nothing worth having ever comes easily. Don't settle. That is a very wise piece of advice that I got from C.
I'm not settling. I'm moving on. I know what we had. I know what we didn't. I know effort could have been put forth in some areas, but it just didn't happen that way. I do not regret any of my decisions. At the time they seemed right, and time has only reinforced that. You need someone with my virtues but none of my faults. You deserve someone with my virtues and none of my faults.
J... well all I have to say to you is that you've become too paranoid. If you really wanted in you wouldn't have taken 'back off' as an excuse. You would have adapted and continued. But you let me box you up and trap you in my world of games and deceit. Now you don't know what to say. You let it happen. I directed you away and you just fell in line. You struggled a bit, but gave up too easily. Submitted mentally too easily. Possibly another sign of our lack of compatibility. Dune was just the first step, and you just fell a bit short. Intuition and comprehension are two different beasts. Anyway... I digress.
K, I'm sorry I offended your religion. I can be an ignorant bastard sometimes. I try to be objective and neutral, but sometimes generalizations slip out. Dancing on eggshells is no fun. I like swinging my hips with you.
And T just talked out in his sleep. I want to document this. He said something about rubbing lamps.
But back to you K, we just need to do WORK instead of 'relax' all the time. That would help immensely. We can't change our beliefs or the obstacles in our way immediately. Until then, butterfly kisses and huggles. We just both can't afford to not do well this semester. So to beddy bye with me. Promise.