This Is For All You New People...

Everyone fights. No one quits.

I will not quit. Of course I won't, it's not in my nature. I've just been hearing all this stuff of late. All these people are leaving, or talking about how inadequate they feel. Honestly it's making part of me feel the same, but for the most part it's making me feel like I deserve to be here since I think all these people are full of crap. They just don't understand. It helps with my theory that a major problem with most individuals in society is that they give up way too fast. Now I understand that not everyone is right for CCNE. I mean come on. It's a VERY small school.
But still. Don't give up just because you feel uninspired and isolated. Get out more. I got a compliment last night in fact from an RA. He and I had talked over the summer when he friended me on facebook. I did my normal creepy number and snagged his AIM, so the next time he popped online I chatted with him. He and I chatted here or there, mostly when I had a question about this or that. It was getting close to the end of the summer and my nerves were starting to fray. I was excited about college, yes, but I was also worried that I wouldn't fit in. (Well I guess I shouldn't have worried about that, I fit in perfectly - or as perfectly as one can fit in.)
So anyway, my point is that my RA friend told me that I am not at all what he thought I would be like. He thought, based on our internet conversations, that I would be the reserved type. Instead he sees me out and about and participating in campus activities. Granted not as often as I would like, but there are a number of reasons for that and school work isn't the top one. He noticed how I seem to be an outgoing character, a lot of people did in fact. This is funny because I am not an outgoing person, I am really a HUGE introvert.
I just act outgoing in public as a defense mechanism. That and I am very empathic. Instead of allowing my energy to be sucked away by people I throw it onto them. I am over anxious and hyper. But I also read moods and feelings. I know when someone is down. I try to bring smiles to everyone's faces with my stupid antics.
So yeah. I will make 15 hundred bucks over xmas break and I will come back next semester. I will graduate from CCNE. I mean it. No one quits.